I found it. I've come to the end of me, where the only choice I have is faith. Yesterday I found out only 2 tickets have sold for my fundraiser dinner on Friday. While I've had some minor panic moments I've been pretty strong in faith knowing God's going to come through. Tonight I decided to skip my normal entertainment and to-do list plans and have some Jesus time to talk to him about this in addition to the hours of prayer today and yesterday. This is what he told me: If I get through Friday with only a one cent donation and I lose a lot of money on this event, but I have faith, and I am kind and my words are loving and encouraging - then it's a success. So for all of those who pray for me, remember the story about the battle with the Amalek :
Amalek came and fought Israel at Rephidim. Moses ordered Joshua: "Select some men for us and go out and fight Amalek. Tomorrow I will take my stand on top of the hill holding God's staff." Joshua did what Moses ordered in order to fight Amalek. And Moses, Aaron, and Hur went to the top of the hill. It turned out that whenever Moses raised his hands, Israel was winning, but whenever he lowered his hands, Amalek was winning. But Moses' hands got tired. So they got a stone and set it under him. He sat on it and Aaron and Hur held up his hands, one on each side. So his hands remained steady until the sun went down. Joshua defeated Amalek and its army in battle.
God said to Moses, "Write this up as a reminder to Joshua, to keep it before him, because I will most certainly wipe the very memory of Amalek off the face of the Earth."
Moses built an altar and named it "God My Banner." He said,
Salute God's rule!
God at war with Amalek
Always and forever!
--- Exodus 17 Msg
I know I need you holding my arms in this battle of faith this week. I am so weak and I'm struggling so much. PLEASE be praying for me. Prayer is the only way to win this battle and I cannot do it alone.
