Going Back!

I have been called back to my children in Uganda. I am so excited. I’m officially going. First I officially have to go to nursing school. :) I’m feeling overwhelmed and nervous at this new junction in my life. I know it’ll be ok though and I just need to keep my focus on God. That’s HARD when everything around you is telling you to focus on the homework. I know God is good though and if I make him my priority then I will do well. MY first major act of obedience in this is, no homework on Sunday. This will be a constant challenge but will also allow me to do well in AWANA, I won’t feel pulled in different directions when I need to do AWANA stuff.

Pray for me as I make this transition to nursing school. I feel like not being around the church all the time that I’m not getting prayed for like I was when I was an intern and I need more prayer now.

Re-discover

I feel scared to cry out to be rededicated in my heart. I’m scared o fully commit because what if my grades suffer? I have it so backwards. Jesus I surrender these fears I want to lose myself in You. I want to be completely Yours and I want to find you deeper then ever before. Re-enlighten me and let me rediscover you as I let go of me. Help me to let go of me.

Africa please!

In order to graduate from the nursing program we have to do a community service project. Well, I am working on trying to go to Africa and do an immunization clinic. Please be praying about this and that it will come together. My heart is aching to do this, and I’m really excited about the possibility.

Later...

I just got encouragement from the nursing director too!

blogging purely

I've decided to be more of a blogger. So we'll see how consistent I am...

I'm reading Keep a Quiet Heart by Elisabeth Elliot which is basically her book of what would be blogs. She talks about what purity means to will one thing. That is the last thing that defines me. I have so many desires for my life. Sometimes I think I would be saddened if Jesus came just yet, because I feel like there are things that I would be disappointed I missed. I know so much of me is made for nursing school and I plan to use those skills for kingdom purposes, but I'm not of one purpose there. Although it would be great to say my only real love was Jesus. I still want to discover the meaning of two becoming one in all of it's depths. I want to know these things. I want to experience these things. They keep me from being pure of heart though. Which Elisabeth says keeps us from peace. Well that explains a lot. I don't know what to do with this

news worthy

Update time.

I got into nursing school! I'm waiting to hear back from one that's closer to home but I am going to nursing school in the fall.

The number of medications I am on is decreasing and I'm feeling healthier, most of the time.

Jesus is just so good. I struggle to understand why I watch others being blessed financially while I am hindered in ministry and blessing others because I can't pay my bills.

That's what's going on with me these days.

Writing poetry again apparently...

You see me

In a sea of faces you find me

In the lonely desolate night you comfort me

I am who I am not because of what I do or say

But I am who I am because of what you did for me and what you say about me

When I feel lost and like I'm not good enough

You see me and remind me to made me to be me

And that's who I am.

Life ugh

So big prayer request. I got a MASSIVE pay cut at work. So I'm now trying to figure out what to do and I think I'll be starting my own business. So please be praying that God blesses this venture and gives me clients. I will be doing a bookkeeping/payroll/med management service for adult family homes in Wenatchee.

Tanzania!

There's a song I learned when I was in Uganda in January with a phrase in the chorus that says "The Spirit of the Lord is moving in Africa." I see that to be true, as God is calling me back. As most of you know, I am doing a ministry internship at my church this year that encompasses Bible training and discipleship, and hands on ministry experience. We are doing several local and out of state outreaches and then we will be going to Tanzania, Africa (ironically enough, Uganda's neighbor) in March 2011. The team will be made up of the interns I am working with, so by March, they'll be my second family which will be the polar opposite from last time when I didn't meet them until I was in Uganda.

Although the emphasis isn't medicine on this trip, as most of my other mission trips have been, I will get to be working with the Maasai people at a YWAM base. In addition to my calling to medicine in the mission field, which I shared with you in last year's letter, while I was in Uganda, I learned my calling is also towards tribal/rural ministry. That's what we will be doing! So I'm excited to grow in this second avenue of the calling God has given me.

I am excited to invite you all again to join me on this experience too. I was so encouraged to see how God used many of you as a crucial part of the last trip. My vision for future ministry is in many ways becoming a reality through you. I feel like the calling I have also includes creatively involving those at home.

I loved the prayer sponsor-a-day last trip and I felt like it helped us feel like a team. I am still working on finishing the events summary; it has been a rather emotional journey to complete. I want to do something similar. Instead of a day of the trip though, I'm going to ask you to sponsor a portion of the trip such as travel or health. Details are on the prayer sponsor form.

I would also like to ask that if you feel led to share a word of encouragement or a funny story or experience for me to share with the team during the trip that you would consider supporting us in that way also.

Financially we are working as a team to raise support, and as I am writing this I feel like I am just supposed to ask you to pray and support in one of the three ways, but I'm not going to share the amount I need because I really only want you to give financially if God is calling you to. The same goes with the other two ways to support.

So PRAY and then...

1) Be a prayer sponsor and watch the Spirit of the Lord move your heart towards Africa with mine.

2) Be an encourager, send us a letter or story to help us through the trip and keep our eyes on Jesus

3) Financially support us as the Lord leads you to give.

Any responses can be sent to enlighten.05@gmail.com