Be still?!

Guerrilla Hostage... Fabulous book. It's about Ray who was captured but Colombian Guerrillas. He was held hostage by these men, yet has forgiven them. That in it of itself made me thing I have to read this cause I struggle with what forgiveness means when the hurt still stings. Anyway then end of the last chapter really struck me. When Ray was first captured his wife and kids had to go back to the states and his wife had to live in this limbo of grief and hope. She'd lost her husband, but maybe not permanantly. Daily she was overcome by this urge to "do SOMETHING" I can completely relate with how sick I've been. There are days where I'll take every vitamin in the house and drink tons of water hoping that will help. Days I've forced myself to go on a walk and push past what I have in me (only to be extreemly ill that night) I think I just have to DO SOMTHING. But this quote gives me peace and strength to go on. "We don't often consider that sometimes Jesus is our strength simply to sit still. " Be still, and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10. Our natural tendancy when we have a painful happening in our lives is to go into action - do something. Somtimes it is wiser to sit and just be still. The answers will come." Whoa. Talk about giving a person permission to take a deep breath and relax. I think this might be the beginning behind the REAL meaning of Shalome.

So here's to pressing on and being still at the same time. Hum. I think that means being content in the situation God has for you presently. Yet not shutting down. It means I can let go of these circumstances I can't control and just seek God. Just be greatful for the fact that I am not in the hospital, but able to be home in my own bed. For the fact that I get like 6 hours a day, sometimes more, to just hear God, without the voice of a boss drowning out His voice. Thank you God... Thank you.